When I started Alpha I really had so much going on in my head. I had heard a lot about Alpha from church and seen people attending it but it really didn’t come to my mind that I should try it. Then things got so bad and I had many unanswered questions in my head, I felt so lonely and invisible, I thought to myself at times that no one cares about me not even God, because if He did He wouldn’t allow this feeling in my heart.
So when this year started I just decided that I am going to try Alpha, and just maybe I will feel much better.
I joined Alpha and I enjoyed it. I felt so much joy and fitted in with people around. I learnt a lot about how God loves us and when we think He is not there it’s just the enemy. The biggest part that touched my heart was how Jesus is standing at the door waiting for us to open it; He doesn’t force Himself to come in. I realized that day that even when we as Christians sometimes don’t open for Him to give us more of His blessings, He still does not force Himself into our lives.
From that time I felt so much freedom and also felt love from the groups chats (when you are just free to be you and get to mingle with people of different age groups and sharing different ideas). I learnt so much, I gained a better personality and all those questions in my mind were just answered by one teaching that I needed to open doors for His blessing.
I decided from the first Alpha that I am going to do it again-and-again because it's like feeding my system to gain more knowledge of God. I love Alpha so much, I love the weekend and just everything about it. It changed my life when I realised there are so many things I was holding back.
Noxolo Mtwesi